Life is full of the unexpected. There is no way to know when or how change will come, but it always does sooner or later. The crossroad isn’t always a welcome sight.
Yesterday was a dark day for us.
Eric went to work and found out that his company is shutting business down at the end of May. He and two thousand other workers will lose their jobs.
The local news sites were covering the story, but Eric was swamped and unable to talk so I had very little information from him directly. All I knew for sure was that he was not having the best of days.
I spent a lot of time praying for him and asking God to give us faith and help us trust Him. Living out faith isn’t magic. It is not easy. My body revealed my stress through a big headache. I’ll be real with you. I was feeling a lot of anxiety and fear.
How was Eric holding up? What was he facing? What was going on? Did he have a job and how long would it last? What is going to happen? When and where will he find a new job? How will these changes impact our family? All of these questions and more were racing through my mind.
Many people reached out to us yesterday. I can’t tell you how comforting is was to know that so many were praying.
I heard a wise woman once say, “When trials come, don’t ask ‘why.’ Instead, ask God to reveal what He wants you to learn.”
Hand-in-hand, my husband and I will walk through this time together knowing that it is an opportunity to see God work and for us to grow as individuals and a couple.
We are making the first steps to start moving forward in a new direction… and it is scary. There are so many questions that we cannot answer and much we do not know.
Here is what we DO know:
Our God is great. He is faithful and unchanging. He knows exactly what we’re feeling, thinking, and facing. We know that His power is made perfect in our weakness. God has a plan and He will take care of our tomorrows just like He took care of our yesterdays.
One of our favorite verses is Philippians 4:8, “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”
I had a hard time putting that to action yesterday. My mind wanted to go to all kinds of unhealthy places. I wanted to analyze and over-think everything. As my brother-in-law reminded me yesterday, “Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but never gets you anywhere.”
Every day is a choice of where we let our minds and focus dwell. We have to be intentional to “preach truth to ourselves” during the hard times (that quote is from another friend).
This is when the rubber hits the road. It’s really easy to trust and praise God when life is going as we think it should, but I’ve found that my relationship with God is so much sweeter during the hard times…. those times when I must trust Him on a deeper level.
So, on that note, we can be joyful. Joyful because this scary time might just be what it takes to draw us closer to our Father. Joyful because God works all things together for the good of those that love Him. Joyful because He uses those things to conform us to His image. Joyful because the climb means there is a hilltop.
Pray for the many others and the community who are and will be impacted from this shut down.
Pray for us, friends. It can be so difficult to keep the right perspective. It is even harder to live it out. Pray that God gives us peace, the trust of a child, rest, endurance, and clear direction in where He wants us to go.
Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him, on those who hope in his steadfast love, that he may deliver their soul from death and keep them alive in famine.
Our soul waits for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. For our heart is glad in him, because we trust in his holy name. Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you.